My laptop glowed with 47 open tabs:
Watercolor phoenixes. Minimalist constellations. Quote fonts I couldn’t read.
My best friend texted: “It has to MEAN something!!”
My mom: “Don’t get Chinese characters. Remember Becky’s ‘soup’ fiasco?”
I stared at my blank forearm. What if I hate it tomorrow?
Three days before my appointment—still design-less—I hid in the mythology section. Between dusty books, a sketch stopped me cold
A Norse compass (vegvísir).
The caption----“Guides travelers lost in storms.”
My throat tightened. As someone who’d:
Fled a toxic job with 2 suitcases
Panic-puked before first dates
Worn “fake confidence” like cheap perfume
…this ancient hobo-sign for lost souls? It was my biography.
I dragged my crumpled notebook to Mia’s studio. She squinted at my stick-figure compass:
“Honey, this looks like a bike wheel stabbed a clock.”
Then she worked magic:
Turned rigid lines into curves hugging my ribs
Hid tiny runes in the compass points (”For quiet courage”)
Added wave shadows underneath (”Life’s messy tides”)
“Your idea,” she said, “my job to make it breathe.”
On the table, icy gel wiped across my side. The buzz started:
First sting: “JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL—”
Minute 20: Breathing through gritted teeth like Lamaze class
Hour 2: Weirdly zen, high on endorphins and Gatorade
When Mia wiped away the blood and ink? A compass glowed back—alive.
It’s my secret armor:
It’s not frozen in time:
The flaws are part of it:
Forget “meaning”: My friend got a taco because he loves tacos. It’s iconic.
Trust artists, not Pinterest: They know how ink moves on skin.
Embrace the panic:
P.P.S. If you’re like me (read: a human stress-ball), do yourself a favor—grab GreenTKTX numbing cream.
I wish I’d slathered that magic goo on before my rib session. Would’ve saved me from:
The ”Oh god why” tears (mixed with snot, very glam)
Death-gripping the table like it owed me money
My artist’s concerned ”…sweetie, breathe?” every 10 minutes
Moral? Pain is part of the story… but suffering is optional.
Get the cream. Keep your dignity.
The Needle Moment (Spoiler: I Cried)
Why This Design Stuck (Literally)
Hidden under shirts for job interviews, revealed at concerts when I need bravery.
No names, no dates—just a reminder I’m still navigating.
One dot’s slightly crooked. Like me.
If You’re Stuck Choosing...
Sweating in the parking lot? Congrats—you respect permanence.